ART: Deep Water

So when I was home for Christmas I went through my old CD collection to put on my computer. Let's see... Spice Girls, Madonna, Celine Dion, Titanic, and Jewel. Sometimes I can't help but laugh looking back on my life now that I have finally accepted that I am gay. DUH! Anyway, I've always appreciated Jewel's lyrics and they ways that they have inspired me since I was young. This is her song "Deep Water" and think that Gay Mormons struggling to come to terms with their sexuality could relate. We often are the authors of the chains that bind us. It isn't until we can learn to love ourselves that we can break free. Listen to it here.

You find yourself falling down
Your hopes in the sky
But you heart like grape gum on the ground
And you try to find yourself
In the abstractions of religion
And the cruelty of everyone else
And you wake up to realize
Your standard of living somehow got stuck on survive

When you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
And when you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love

You wake up to realize your only friend
Has never been yourself or anybody who cared in the end
That's when suddenly everything fades or falls away
'Cause the chains which once held us are only the chains which we've made

When you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
And when you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love, love, love
It's nothing without love

We've compromised our pride
And sacrificed out health
We have to demand more
Not of each other
But more from ourselves

"Cause when you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
When you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love, love, love
It's nothing without love
It's nothing without love